Today I am not in a good place, I am probably in the worst place I have been in more than a year. I am scared, I don’t trust the system and I just don’t know when this abuse will end. Domestic Abuse – When will it End? If you asked me this question a week ago I would have said it is coming to an end, he is almost two years out of the home and I felt the courts had the measure of him and they saw the liar that he is but today I am so sacred, the level at which he will sink to sling mud, to try and cause me pain, to paint an untrue account of events is shocking and really scary.
I have a week of things to get though so this article is a little cryptic to say the least but I am afraid to talk, I am scared what consequences may come from speaking about my life being abused by my ex.
It is abundantly clear that his goal is to silence me BUT why as a victim should I be silenced?. I have found so much comfort in sharing my story, I have cried and laughed with so many of you while we shared our stories of abuse privately and it angers me so much that someone who was physically, sexually and emotionally abusive can ask for my silence.
Overall I feel very lucky, I have found strength I never knew I had to get through these last few years but in the last few days and today in particular I am struggling, I don’t know is this because the girls and I have been doing so well, so he has up’d the accusations game, I don’t know if it is because he has lost another job, but he has up’d his madness and I am terrified as to what he might do next.
Domestic Abuse – When will it End?