5 Months in to 2020

Written by ClareWithTheHair

So we are JUST 5 months in to 2020 and my oh my what a year it has been!. It has been a complete roller coaster of emotions, uncertainty, loss and laughter.

Back in January my youngest lady returned to school after a lovely Christmas break, my eldest returned to university and I returned to work. It started like any other year but because it was 2020 and we had just launched Beauty by C.E.D we were super excited for the year ahead, so many plans, so much to do and so excited to get it done, but it seems 2020 had other plans. See Beauty by C.E.D


In February we got a call to say that the girls Grandmother was missing, she had got up in the middle of the night and left the house with nothing only the nightclothes she had gone to bed in. Instantly we gathered ourselves together and hopped in the car BUT when we arrived to her home we were told they had found nana Mary in the river, she was gone, just like that. Up and chatting the evening before and now she was gone. Just so unbelievable that a lady in her 60’s would end her life like this but Mary wasn’t well, she had a lifelong chronic illness and she was very depressed and this was not her 1st attempt at taken her life, however we never imagined she would be successful.

It was a horrible time and we parked the development and launch of the website because none of us had the ability to be creative and on it like we needed to be, but hey its ok, it is only February and we have the whole year to get this done…

On March 11th 2020 I took the decision to work from home, we have had cases of Covid 19 in the country at this stage and I wasn’t feeling 100% so the wise decision was to stay at home. Just 2 days later on the 13th March 2020 the schools and colleges announced that at 4pm they would be closed for a period of 3 weeks, as we know now children are now not due to return to school until September 2020.


We are now the 18th May 2020 and I have not returned to work. It has been a long almost 10 weeks off. In the beginning I cleaned frantically, I was constantly looking for thinks to do, creating lists and making myself busy, I was glued to the news and the non stop Covid 19 updates, I was watching the special news reports and I was driving myself mad. It was so unhealthy to be so consumed by the reality of what was going on.

So about 5 weeks in I stopped, I stopped with the DIY project’s, I stopped waiting and watching every news update and I decided to refocus my energy on being more content with this lockdown.

The last couple of weeks I have been so much happier and I thought about it and until I retire I will never get this time again to slow do, to spend time with my girls and to just enjoy lazy days with no guilt.


Of coarse I have had a wobble or two, I have struggled with sleep, I have shed a few tears but then I remind myself just how lucky we are.

We have each other, we have our health, we have the telly with every subscription imaginable, we have the internet, we can chat and text family and friends daily, we have a roof over our heads, food in the fridge and we have had the best weather each and every day.

While lockdown and Covid 19 is crap I have seen so much good and kindness and a real feel of community from people. I was watching the Late Late show last Friday night and Eoghan McDermott was on to shave his head to raise money for the Julian Benson Cystic Fibrosis Foundation and they raised over €500,000 .. like seriously, how amazing is this.

We have seen musicians preform live on facebook and instagram, we have seen PT do free online classes each day, MUA running online courses and so much more.. Lockdown seems to have shown us just how great we are as people, just how kind we can be, just how much we can appreciate each other.

Today marks the 1st day in the 1st phase of lockdown restrictions easing but we have a way to go, but we can do this, we have done almost 10 tough weeks so far and I am sure we have it in us to keep going.

5 months in to 2020 and what a few months it has been, this is something we will never forget, it is a time we have all lost so many that we love, it is a time that will affect each and every one of us for years to come in some way or another.

Lets look forward, to days beyond this when we can hold those we love again.

5 months in to 2020

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